Lead Me to the Cross


The other day Don and I were having a little “disagreement”, and I can’t even remember now what it was about. But before we could resolve it, I had to leave to go pick up one of our kids. I got in the car and was still feeling the anger and frustration. You know when you just can’t even really think clearly because the anger is making you irrational?? In my head I was going over whatever it was we had been arguing about and thinking about what I was going to say when I got back—to win the argument! (Isn’t it crazy that it was so unimportant that I’ve forgotten the issue now, but at the time it had such a grip on me?!)

As I was riding down the road, God began to break through my thinking. I began to hear the words of a song on the radio. “Lead Me to the Cross”– the chorus says: “Lead me to the cross, where Your love poured out. Bring me to my knees, Lord, I lay me down. Rid me of myself, I belong to You, O lead me, lead me to the cross.” Oh wow! God’s timing is just amazing, isn’t it?! Don’t tell me He’s not in the small stuff!!

That line: “Rid me of myself, I belong to You”….that was the line that really screamed out at me. I had been sitting there thinking of MY feelings, what MY reaction was gonna be, how MY thoughts were right. Then God reminded me through this song that IT’S NOT ABOUT ME!! His Spirit was gently asking me to remember who I belonged to… and it wasn’t myself! I belong to HIM, and I need to seek His will, His heart, and His thoughts…not mine. I need to die to myself…which is what “lead me to the cross” is all about.

In the context of this situation with Don, I needed to back off of my thinking and try to see his. I needed to lay down my “rights” and love Don enough to get back on the same page and not let this divide us. By the time I got back home, we had both had time to let God change our hearts, so it was a non-issue! But I learned a lesson through the words of that song. Dying to self is HUGE. The cross is not just symbolic of my redemption, it needs to be my way of life.  And not just in the overriding theme of my life, but in the day-to-day activities and conversations. It needs to be central to every aspect of my life.

“And he (Jesus) was saying to them all, ‘If anyone wishes to come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.’ ” (Luke 9:23)


3 Responses to “Lead Me to the Cross”

  1. Jan Says:

    Amen. 🙂 How awesome to be a Kingdom child of a merciful Father.

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